Hi my name is Michelle and I am searching for happiness. Thank you for taking the time to read. I was trying to put a video on here instead but for some reason I'm not able to do so. So my story is about my adoption. I was giving my walking papers at 6 months old to a family that could care less about me to this day. I was molested and raped by family members from a little child to my teen years. I have since found my biological family and they live in Las Vegas. I found them through 23andMe and learned that I was 51% sub-Saharan African and 49% white. But I told my adopted parents that my siblings molested me as a child for many years,and they turned their back on me years and years ago. And the others that have molested me that are in this family do not talk to me because they know that I know. So I am asking for donations so I can move to Las Vegas to be with my biological family and I can't do it by myself. I just lost my dog I've lost my car and I'm homeless. I'm doing side jobs off of Craigslist but it seems to be a little dangerous ..I cannot shower everyday so it's hard to find regular work. Living outside in this weather is hell. I am asking that you reach out to me and understand my situation that I have to turn my back on this adopted family. They have turned their back on me a long time ago and they could care less about me. They do not contact me on holidays they don't call me ever and I can't remember the last time they said that they loved me and that must have been very very long ago if you can't remember the last time you were told you were loved.i feel abandoned and have for a very long time,So I want to move to Las Vegas and be with my people that love me that I've never met before that I contact almost every day and speak with. They love me .I found out that I have eight sisters and one brother and my biological parents are deceased. I just want to be loved and give all the love that I have to someone that wants it. I do have a wonderful daughter in another state and she has no idea what I'm going through. If you could just see the tears running down my face you would understand how important it is to me to go home to my family. The reason I'm asking for this amount of money is so I can get stable there get a home find a home to live in and be okay and find work and start my life and be happy for once. Being adopted is very difficult and the ones that are adopted know exactly what I mean. My dream is to be with people that love me and I have a lot of love to give. I just feel very abandoned by this family and like I said they have turned their backs on me and I don't deserve it I've done nothing to them to deserve this. I don't really know what else to say except for I'm pleading with with everyone to help me so I can move on and I have already decided to turn my back and never look back again. It is taking me a long time to come to this conclusion but I have to do it because I need to be happy in my life and I want to be loved and I don't even know what that is. I have trust issues and I'm sad everyday I'm away from my family ,and knowing I'm walking away forever and the hardest part is when my adopted parents passed away it's going to kill me because I love them so much. And I don't think they love me because I don't know why anyone would do this to a person especially one they have adopted but it just pains me so much to know I'm leaving them behind but at the same time they're not there anyways so I can put myself through this anymore.. I just want to give up and I'm trying to hold on ..I know there's a purpose here on this Earth for me but it's very hard everyday. I feel like I have no choice,that they put me in the situation where I have to turn my back in order to find love and be happy in my life. They loved me when I was a child I think but as I gradually got older and then I told them my situations with family members everything went to shambles. And I don't see how I deserved it. My doctor's dad would walk past me and in the minute he turned his back on me he would not his head back and forth like I'm a waste of life and I'll never forget that I'll never get it out of my head and I don't understand why he does that like I'm not worthy. Am I at fault for this? It hurts to the core if you could see my face right now you would understand how much I am in pain. I still have that inside and I have for many years and I just want to feel whole again or should I say I just want to feel whole. I've talked to my God and I will continue to do so every day. I thought of everything I could do to make these people love me but it's just to no evail .. I'm 54 years old now and I can't waste any more time wondering if they're ever going to tell me that they love me and they accept me for who I am which is a wonderful person with a huge heart that just wanted and wants to be loved..I have known for about 6 months about my family I have just found them and I want to be with them and they want to be with me but they can't afford it either. So I'm asking you to just please understand my situation and help me get off these streets and to my family where I want to be forever so I can start my life and be a happy person. Every day is hell when you're living like I am. Going through rape and molestation is horrible and I don't wish it upon my worst enemy. I don't really know what else to say I just need some help so I can go home to people that love me. Thank you for reading and have a blessed day.. I really wanted to post a video by the way but for some reason I just can't do it because my YouTube will not update so I don't understand why but my phone is not the best phones considering I'm living outdoors, please find it in your heart to help…Thank you in advance and God bless!