Update on Junior. 💔

We got more devastating news today. Junior still has the 2 catastrophic brain bleeds he had last week, but after another CT scan, doctors found an additional severe brain bleed. Things are getting worse. My son is dying.

I have spent the last few days trying to come to terms with something no mother should ever have to accept. My heart is shattered into a million pieces. I would do absolutely anything to save my baby, but no matter what we do, something else goes wrong. Another complication. Another setback. Another piece of bad news. It feels like everything that possibly can happen to my child… does. I keep asking God why. Why my baby? Why does my innocent little boy have to suffer like this? I know people say we aren’t meant to understand everything in life, but I cannot understand why my child is being taken from me. I just can’t.
I also want to be honest and say I’m not okay. I don’t really want to talk much. Going to the hospital has become something I dread every single day because I’m literally watching my baby slowly die in front of me. There are no words to explain the pain of that feeling. None. And on top of trying to survive this emotionally, I’m now having to think about funeral arrangements for my son. My baby. Do you know how sickening it feels to hear that a “decent” funeral service costs at least $10,000? I feel like I can barely breathe right now, yet I’m expected to figure out how to pay to bury my child peacefully.
We still have about $3,000 left from the last GoFundMe fundraiser, and every single dollar is going toward Junior’s funeral expenses, but it’s nowhere near enough. I never imagined I would be begging strangers on the internet for help to bury my baby, but I am desperate. Please, if you see this, share this post. Even if you can’t donate, sharing could help this reach the right person. Sometimes all it takes is one share landing on the right person’s page. That alone could change everything for us right now.
I hate even having to ask this. I feel completely broken and hopeless. But the last thing I want is to have to worry about what happens to my child after he passes because I can’t afford to lay him to rest properly.

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I also still have the same GoFundMe up from the last fundraiser for Junior. You can find it by searching my name on the GoFundMe website.
Thank you to everyone who has supported us, prayed for us, donated, or even just shared our story. I truly appreciate every single one of you.
And please understand ahead of time if I don’t respond to messages right away. I’m not ignoring anyone or trying to be rude. I genuinely feel like I’m dying inside right now.