When it comes time for my loved wife to go to heaven I will not be able to cremate her I don't know what will happen I won't be able to pay for anything we are approaching our 24th anniversary of marriage and I hope to go to the 25th I have been struggling with myself and I currently live in my van 🚐 with my cat 🐈 that will be tuning 23 in October my van is falling apart no AC radiator is on it's last legs my wife is not doing well several things wrong I don't like to talk about it lets just say bad and getting worse I don't know how much longer I will be devastated when the time comes I just need a little help with everything please 🙏 for My wife and my cat I don't want nothing else I'll deel with myself after there gone my heart will give out after there gone if not sooner for me please help them don't worry about me