I have tirelessly helped others, my kid and my community. I was just diagnosed with auto immune diseases that have stolen my life. I cannot think, function,  enjoy, walk ,sleep or help anyone if I can nonlinear help myself. 

I am downhill to the point I cannot work full time…even a day. Its dangerous , its depressing and everything is falling apart around me. 

Ny home is in emergency disarray with gaping hole in roof and other issues needing repair. 

Im under water.. and cant find the surface . 

Food, bills, kids, pets and every necessity is in immediate danger. 

 I probably should be on SSDI. BUT, that could take forever and if approved at all. 

I want to live. I want comfort. I want to continue to help others.

I find this difficult to write let alone ask for help. 

Thank-you for reading.