hello, i'm lain, 23, and my fiance is fauna, 25. we've been struggling for some time now, and i was suddenly let go on christmas eve with no warning. since then i have struggled to undersell myself while reading tarot to make any means that's enough to just eat that day. and it's simply not enough to do so by asking our friends. we go without medications, toilet paper, toiletries, groceries, and more. we are not doing laundry + rewearing dirty clothes because we have no money for the laundromat, skipping meals to ensure the other one eats, skipping medications to make sure they last longer, and the only thing we can do is beg, advertise my tarot, and play games on justplay for mere pennies at a time and rot away.

even our cats have to suffer making their food and litter last, feeding them wet food cans too often, and being unable to take our one disabled cat to the vet because if we surrender them into any vet or shelter around here, they are most definitely going to be put down. pet pantries and even regular food banks around here give terrible options that cannot equate to making balanced meals, especially when the food comes rotten or tampered with / damaged heavily. it's extremely difficult to get to these places as well, as many of them are far away and mostly drive ups. sometimes, if you aren't on food stamps, they will refuse you for not qualifying. 

i made my goal low because i feel ashamed of asking for any help. i have begged my friends out of desperation, and usually they're not doing so well either and cannot help. even when they can, i feel extremely guilty because it's a lot to have someone at your mercy — especiallyy when you don't even have the means to give. fauna's parents are not in the picture at all, and while one of mine is in the same boat as us, the other refuses to help anymore after so long of suffering. i live in a dying city with cruel corporations and even more hostile people in our community. i swear to you we both have applied to everything around here that we could bus to, even if it was 2 hours and 2 cities away. we keep getting refused and told lies only to never hear back or get a rejection email. we were on food stamps for a while there, but they cut us off a month ago because neither of us could find a lasting job within 5 months. i had waited 4 months without one i could take, to start the one that fired me on christmas eve — while fauna injured himself badly working for a well known warehouse that fired him just for needing to go to the hospital and the doctors, yet again, refusing to look any further.. fauna has scoliosis and prediabeties from his parents whie dealing with medical negligence and misogyny from the only doctors we can get into around here, so his job opportunities are very limited without him risking major injury. i myself am disabled, but i ignore the pain pretty well while working and getting back and forth when i do have a job. i just. can't. get someone to hire me. 

i'm really sorry for the long explanation,  but if i'm asking for donations to keep my family afloat i want to be as honest and open as possible. regardless if anyone donates, i want to say i'm eternally grateful to my 5 friends who have made sure we didn't DIE. and i am grateful you even read this. if you could, please share this around so i have a chance at surviving during this hellish time. anything at all will help more than ignoring us. 

for reference  : 

a whole day of bus fare : 5.50 USD

toilet paper for a week and a half : 8 USD

each of our medications each . . together there are 8 to pay for : 10 USD (medicaid discount)

two loads of laundry : 13 USD

a space heater to actually stay warm : 14 USD

a doctor's visit : 15 USD

fauna's phone bill : 27 USD (mine is paid by a family member)

my credit bill : 30 USD

cat litter + cat food for 2 weeks : 30 USD

wifi bill that keeps us connected for jobs, resources, my side business, and the outside world: 50 USD 

basic survival groceries for a week : 75 USD

vet visit for angel (cat) : 90 USD

solid groceries for a week : 100 USD

thank you so much. — lain