Hello to everyone, my fellow brothers and sisters, and to all the people here in our community. First off, thank you for just stopping and making the time to give interest on reading to learn the difficulties I'm now experiencing in my life. My name is Alexus and I'm 31 years old. I'm currently  facing and dealing with life's constant turns,   feeling as if I'm a target at being thrown in  unexpected situations that consistently keeps happening  more than ever in life , and finally getting a taste of what its like to reach rock bottom. Never once in my life I ever imagined nor thought twice about me having a turn to know what its like and to actually live to see and get through it. I always wanted the best for myself. I didn't want to ever see me fall into a place in time to feel the hopelessnes like this because truly I am a living witness to watching both my parents struggling all my life growing up. But here I am experiencing the same. Oct,1 2020 was when my life changed drastically. I made a mistake in my life and caught a DWI charge and was forced to deal with the harsh consequences that drowned me mentally and financially. I've honestly learned my lesson from it and now see it as a true and complete blessing that made eventually made me realized how fortunate I was after the fact. I could have died or and even killed an innocent human due to my carelessnes. The guilt that came over me was real and led me into a great deal of depression.  I went from having 2 jobs making 6k a month to losing both jobs due to me going to jail, constantly having to go to court, weekly check ins, paying court fees, attorney fees , probation fees etc. I spent my whole life's saving and even had to exhaust my 401k to pay for these costly expenses.  Im just in need , desperately crying out for someone to kindly give me the hand I need with the help from our community. With the amount of faith and daily prayers, I just pray that there is someone who has a giving heart, to help me see a miracle and support my breakthrough in life. My life hasn't been the same. The family I have cant help me because they chose to be gamblers as a way to earn money to survive. My only support was my grandmother but she passed away in 2023 and is no longer here to rescue and help save me from drowning. I dont like asking for help and my pride is too high but Im left with no choice but to reach out . I lost my car back in June of this year due to the problems I couldn't afford to get fix. I then lost my job after for making a tough decision on sacrificing everything i had going on ,  just to be there to care for my only father I have , that suddenly had a  stroke in his sleep. Im constantly dealing with one thing after another and it seems to be never-ending. Im drowning and cant stay afloat. Im now facing an eviction and im about to  lose everything I have. I just need help from anyone that is just willing . 

Please im at my wits end and dont want to give up but im feeling like this is the end for me. 

Im very thankful for all the support. 

With love, Alexus