dealing  with heart problems and back surgery for over a year, missing a lot of work. Medical bills, rent and other bills associated with everyday living. Raising grandaughter also. Been selling everything i have trying to pay my bills. My health gotten better working part time. But still behind, its a hard fight, trying to detox off narcotics pain killers and other meds given by doctors. I keep falling behind. Beginning to think it is not worth it. Been fighting all my life. Parents abanded me, adopted in 68 then they my step parents and 2 baby girls killed in 69 by drunk driver. been in military Army 6 years ,Air Force 4 years, prision 4 years. Have become minister for last 8 years but dont believe like most do, The Lord took my daughter in April do to drug overdose. Just looking for a hand up…not a hand out.    Thank you for reading this and God bless….