My name is Aniesa Gonzales, and I am fundraising this fundMe  account for my mother who just passed away. I had to endure the heart-wrenching task of having to remove my mother from life support. It was one of the most difficult decisions I have ever made in my life. I don't know how exactly I am feeling because I do not think they have a word for the way I am feeling at this moment yet. It's a little in between the feeling of shattered and broken and lost and wanting to go back in time to say I love you one more time. My mom is everything to me. I also had the positive trait of being able to share the same birthday as my mother, so we were both Sagittarius. My mom was always my hero and did the best she could as a parent with the knowledge she had. Even though she may not have been the world's best mother and was also not the worst, she was still mine, and God blessed me with being able to call her my mommy. I would not have changed anything because she was different. That is always what I would tell my mom because she always thought she was born cursed or not good enough or not able to be normal like everyone else. She felt like she didn't deserve to live or to be loved or to have anything positive meant for her life. And that is where I told her she was wrong. I loved her even more because my mom was different. She wasn't like the rest of the moms that would show up to parent-teacher conferences or to chaperone at school field trips. I loved the fact that she was different and she was uniquely made for me. Even if she was born sick, she was born in a way that I could learn from her illness and be able to know how to help others with her same condition when she was no longer here with us. She also taught me patience. Dealing with someone with that sort of illness takes a lot of willpower, love, time, and patience. They may be stubborn and often hard to handle, and it's difficult for most people to understand or want to know how to deal with her or how to handle her in situations where it's hard and you have to make the decisions for her. I wanted to give her the world, but unfortunately, I ran out of time to do so. I want to be able to give her everything she deserves for her funeral so she can see that she is loved. Even if I am the only one who assists in doing anything for her memory, I hope she knows I love her enough for a million people, so it doesn't matter if no one was there. I was there, and that is enough love for me to know that she completed her task on earth. She had the opportunity to love someone and to be loved and to be finally happy. I want her to have the service she deserves. I just need a little help getting there. I do not have enough money to bury her, so that option is no longer available. To cremate her and be able to place her next to my grandpa would be the safest and most peaceful place I can give her. If anyone can help me in getting her services with any donations, I would greatly appreciate it and be forever thankful. Thank you for reading this.