I am not the best at this. In the end, I have always felt proud of my life. I had a lot of ups and downs, but I am prideful…not vain. As I write this, I am tired of fighting though I keep going because it is what I was grown to keep going at all odds. Work hard? You get rewarded. You give years of your life? You supposed to get the American dream. Able to have a car, have a home, have a good stable job, and able to live…not just survive. I want my wife. I want a family. I want… I mainly want to just try to make the American dream real like it was for my parents for myself. 

Right now, the truth? I am a security guard. I am not making money much higher than minimum wage. I lost my business I started at the beginning of the year. I am behind on bills. I want to fight, but I can't do it if I can't get my head above. I am trying to pay the debt, and have some breathing room to learn a trade. That way I can keep the first house I ever brought last year. Not only will this catch me up with bills, but I can also focus on just studying and learning to hold my own and maybe try again to have a proper business based around freight dispatch, proper stocks, and HVAC. Basically I got plans. I got goals. The ai bubble is about to pop. That isn't the only thing. There is also day trading and so forth. But I can't go anywhere without genuinely having anything. Maybe this will get some traction. Maybe it will get nothing. I am just… giving it all my all. In the end, I am hoping to have it by the end of the month at earliest. Later, middle of August. Just can't give up.