I just want to take my children to a home where we aren’t scared of a man coming home screaming. Where my kids don’t feel like they have to protect ME. I want them to feel more protected. I want us to finally live free and happy. I have been in this relationship with my daughter’s father on and off for almost 8 Years. I’ve had a restraining order and I’ve been hit and strangled. I can’t believe I’ve ever went back but I know abuse survivors go back many times before they leave for good so I try not to  hard on myself over that. The mental mind games are tragic… The way he has been able to manipulate me makes my stomach turn. They way everything’s my fault somehow :/

The last time we got back together he promised I could stay home with my kids like I’ve always wanted and that things would be good… obviously I should’ve known better. He got me right where he wanted me… no money, no house, my food assistance gone…. I have no family to help. My kids in a shelter makes me feel like a horrible mom. No offense to anyone in that situation. I am so anxious and nauseous and I just want to escape but I have no money and nowhere to go. If you could find it in your heart to donate or send to someone else who can donate or both my children and I are forever grateful. I hate asking for help but I don’t know what else to do…