Just so everyone knows I’m still here , just haven’t been coming on here . I have been dealing with some stuff like not having a home , sure I’ve been staying with bubba but wasn’t suppose to be seeing it’s hud so I got put on restriction for my time spent there . Since my landlord sold the house I lived in 3 years ago my life has really gone down hill . But all my life I’ve battled through . I’m not going to get into details but just know I’m not ok now . On June 8th my oxygen level dropped to 50% and even lower at times . I called 911 and the ambulance came and I remember them being here , I remember being put in the back of the ambulance and I remember seeing my sweet neighbor looking in at me with a worried look 😞😞 I was then rushed to the ER in Breckenridge MN , I do not remember leaving the apartment. I was then in critical condition. They ended up putting a breathing tube and feeding tube in me and air lifted me to Fargo where they have the equipment and Drs best to deal with this kind of thing . I did not wake up until the 9th and it was later in the morning not knowing what was going on .they eventually took the tubes out and I wasn’t allowed to eat or drink until they did a test to make sure I was able to swallow ok which at the time of the test I wasn’t . So I had to go one more day with no food no water by the 10th I was STARVING !! I was however able to swab my mouth with water so my mouth wasn’t so dry . Plus I had IV which my arm now looks like a battle field n is very sore 😩😭😭 on the 10th I passed the test n could eat but had to stay another day . I was exhausted 😩 that night I ended up getting some sleep . The 11th I was well enough to go home . But my health is not well at all . I will get there but it’s going to take time for sure because I went a long time not taking care of myself at all . I simply just didn’t care .my diabetes is so out of control that my kidneys are not looking good , and I have neuropathy so bad I can barely move my legs so it’s making it hard to walk . The Dr I saw just yelled at me and scolded me . So I’m done trying to be the strong one for everybody else , I’m done trying to be something I’m not just so people will love me . Take me as I am or don’t take me at all . I’m not perfect never claimed to be ever , but I can guarantee nobody is perfect . I am suppose to be moving into my new apartment today n tomorrow and having a hard time with it because for one I’m weak n exhausted and we have no help , 2. I have $30 to my name . 3. I’m overwhelmed. But this too I will get over and will be in a peaceful place away from toxic abuse from people that  I thought were suppose to love me . But once I get to where I’m going ( my new place ) I’ll be able to take a deep breath and start living my best life away from the people that have ran me down to this point I’m at now . So if u don’t see me here a lot this is why but my messenger is open . Feel free to say hi . N I may get criticized for this pic but I don’t care this is my FB I’ll post what I want . But this is how I looked the other day and it’ll be a constant reminder of how I never wanna be again . I hope everyone has an amazing weekend ! Much love and may God bless you all 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼.  I really hate using these but I really need the help now more than ever . As most know this last week has been very traumatic for me as I almost lost my life . I was in critical condition. I have a long way to recovery . I’m asking for a little help as I’m unable to have a regular job at this point and uber and DoorDash are ok But my car needs a little work . Cv axel and spark plugs , i have a nice young man willing to help me put the parts in for free but the parts are a tad more than what i can afford and without my car I can’t do uber and DoorDash nor will I be able to do anything as it’s my only vehicle. So the cv axel is about 90 and the spark plugs are about 70 , then I have a few other expenses that I could use help with . It won’t take long to get back on my feet once my car is fixed so that’s the main thing . So if you can help I would be forever grateful and if you can’t I’ll take prayers n shares as well . God bless and much love ❤️