I am 45 this year and my health is deteriorating very rapidly. I have had 2 major open heart surgeries within 4 years and since my 2nd surgery, I have congestive heart failure and a pacemaker that keeps my heart pumping. I have had 3 strokes, chronic kidney disease, and I still can't get SSI.  I don't know what else to do except for ask for financial help while I go through medical treatment and evaluations to hopefully restore my health so I can be the mom my babies deserve. I'm going to be honest about everything and tell you that I am 6 years clean and sober and I really need the support of others to get through this.  I am very alone in this situation and I am not ready to give up on life.  My health is fading fast these days causing me worse depression and stress. My youngest is only 10. Please help.