I am seeking a rescue to avoid the loss of my home. I'm already 2 months behind in covering expenses. I will use funds to catch up and pay ahead as I complete a certification course online for Functional Medicine Practitioner — [pre-paid], prepare dad’s home cooked meals & IT jobs as able. I chose that program because of much accumulated practical experience, to become primary source of earning. This is necessary as my father called in September asking urgently for help. He was diagnosed with invasive bladder cancer and scammed out of life savings by cyber criminals in the same week. I could not say no, aside from his wife passing in 2019 he's never been so broken. 

I have an immediate need of $6000 to pay Mortgage & dues & utility to bring current and then start tackling other expenses. I pay everything I bring in towards other bills, fuel for working & food. I am able to get out on IT Field Support calls but not enough to keep up or catch up.

It's my nature to be proactive, even more private, yet especially since 2017 with death of son & providing 6 mos hospice care for husband, in 2018 then multiple  4 - 6 mos stints for other family members - running pretty much back to back, my life just got to be a mess like tangled ivy, especially after Covid-19 which having an early case took me down & extremely ill for several weeks, after which I hit the ground running as an essential IT field support worker, until while in California for 3 city site jobs, a call came that dad's wife was in ICU- 1 day less than a year of my husband passing, she was gone. 2019 [ so from Oregon home on train for 3 cities - changed return from California for an emergency flight to west Texas ], this began a series of months long trips between Oregon & Texas to provide assistance & cancer & other health support. It hasn’t been just care for my dad out here, but my mother needed care for several months in Oregon, 6 + months with my daughter who was gravely & critically ill and more, plus a term as Board of Director -President for my HOA.

Sharing with dad once again, I NEED to have an income, and presented a couple ideas but he decided not to get onboard AFTER I traveled 1700 miles… not always easy reasoning with an 84 yr old but it's his home. So, I'm here, untangling financial things and restoring health one home cooked organic meal at a time after purging 85-95% of processed food with a mix of nutraceuticals & other beneficials. The Functional Medicine Program is perfect as I have my case study right here. He decided to forgo bladder removal or have treatments.

I'm a woman who has spent her life standing up to many challenges, having to forgo much of my childhood to take care of responsibilities beyond my years. I'm still doing it!  

It hasn't been rescuing others or disfunction, but caring for family members or others who have had a serious and or life threatening condition.  From then to now, there are several lifetimes, I’m still … here. Time is catching up with me, so much skill, ability but life circumstances are forcing a change. I love life, a deeply spiritual person, photography, video production/editing, nature, trains, tech & helping others.

As far as the financial…. there’s been far more outgoing than coming in, this is a devastating place to be standing. My core is loyal, my desire genuine but today my body is weak, my spirit meager, in the midst of a storm thrashing me about without conscience, it renders me in a state of ‘paralysis’. This caregiver needs care and really really NEEDS help!

This mostly addresses care giving roles provided for past 8 years. While considered high functioning my overwhelm is compounded by personal ‘issues’ Many personal experiences: mTBI., ADHD, chronic health issues, TSW [2014-15 topical steroid withdrawal], autoimmune disorders, Celiac Disease, e.PTSD, sleep apnea, domestic abuse/violence, [no substance abuse or psychosis issues - miraculously], I have aphantasia and no inner monologue, which creates learning challenges. In the past 10 years, seemingly minor bumps to the head and falls have slowed me down, but I cannot quit or stop efforts in healing brain. Problem is, life began to spiral, before, but post-Covid-19, it’s been extremely challenging.

From an early age, independence and determination with a strong desire to learn and apply practical knowledge have been the norm. Many professionals and non-professionals have encouraged me to write my life experiences, yet do not understand the challenges that such a task presents.  Few people who know me see this aspect of my life, I've masked to my detriment at times.