I never once ever thought just maybe this would happen to me and within a blink of an eye my life changed in an instant..  Anyone who knows me knows that I have the hardest time asking for help and now I am forced to do so in so many different aspect of my life. Not by being able to do much has been one heck of a challenge for me physically, mentally and emotionally.  Some days are better then others but overall the stress alone of not being able to provide for my children has made me antsy and wanting to force the time frame of my recovery so I can hurry up get back to working making money not  have to worry about my children and the what if's that we could or are going to lose. Just continue on with lives plans. It's a horrible feeling going from a hard working parent/ sole provider to not being able to do much not even pick your child up when the fall and get hurt or just want an embrace because everything hurts. I am beginning  to come to terms with reality that  realistically, it is not my choice in how long my body will take healing. For my children I will do whatever is needed to ensure they live a happy, healthy and stable life. They are my whole world 🌎 ♥️  I do need all the help I can get. I've been given a second chance at life. I have a purpose.  I have accepted that having to much pride isn't my ticket to success and it's ok asking for help because not everyone is as strong and as capable of doing so without a choice your whole life can change in an instant and giving up or looking back is not an option. Being appreciative, grateful to be living and moving forward from here on out will define my purpose. 

So here goes nothing.. 

From the bottom of my heart I ask for assistance in a critical time of need please If any family members,  friends or kind Soul out there is in any position of being able to help my children and I get through this difficult time while I am unable to work. Your great deed will not go unnoticed as a parent you will know the feeling of stress and needing to provide. Asking for help isn't always easy especially when you worry of being rejected just know that all is appreciated from the bottom of my heart ❣️ God is looking out for us and everything will be ok.. I have to trust because it's all I'm left with until I reach my recovery.

I have not been able to work therefor, I cannot provide the money needend to pay our bills, provide food, every day necessities, a roof over our heads. Not to mention everything I've worked hard for and accumulated for a household and my small business. I am at risk of losing 😢 both of my storage units in a few days. One unit has all of my business equipment, my money maker to provide for my children and my other unit is filled with our whole home our memories 😭 I've been applying for everything and anything that I can that could possibly provide any sort of relief to our family but unfortunately we do not qualify for much of anything.   

If you do not know my story I will share with you. 

On May 28th my life went before Jesus and he decided it wasn't my time. My adopted family and I took a night trip to go night fishing in Grayson California as we all loved being on the water fishing it was our serene place we headed back around 5 am to Modesto we stopped to grab some coffee and hot cocoa in Ceres to warm our souls as we froze all night fishing. Sue decided to drive as we were all exhausted and cold. We weren't to far from her house about about a mile away life changed in an instant we were in an accident head on with on coming traffic. My child hood friends mom Sue lost her life instantly 😭 her partner Junior was riding behind her and I was passenger survived the crash. My lucy girl was in my lap slowly breathing as she took the impact before I did. My iPhone alerted my emergency contacts and contacted emergency services. I was cut out of the vehicle with the jaws of life. We were rushed to memorial medical centers trama center and admitted into the ICU. I broke my back in 3 places, my right arm in two, my left wrist, my sternum and 5 ribs. My left lung collapsed as I had two puncture wounds and I was internally bleeding from my liver in two separate places. My knees were severely injured as I was trapped by my legs. I can't wrap my head around how I made it out alive from that vehicle. I should have died... 😖 I took the full impact on the front passenger side. Junior passed away from his injuries after fighting a week for his life in the ICU. I feel blessed to be alive and so guilty at the same time we went all together we were supposed to all come home together 💔 Sue and Junior adopted my children and I as family we would visit with them all the time. Sue and I shared a special bond since I was a little girl. She was mama Sue my street mom she fed me, clothed me, protected me and nursed my back to health as a mama would. I loved her so deeply 😢 I never imagined our relationship would end like this. I am so honored to have been loved by her she was a wonderful and courageous woman. I am going to miss her and Junior so much. If I could have gotten one last hug and a chance to say goodbye I would hope this pain would have been easier to endure. My lucy girl passed away the following day from her injuries, Charlie fled the scene and was missing for two weeks. He has now been reunited with our family and we are home together recovering ❤️‍🩹 Hug your family and children tight and don't take anything in life for granted. You never know when your time will come so don't live your life in regret. If you have a chance take it and live your life to your full potential ✨️ 🫶💕

Thank you for reading❣️ May god bless you and keep your family safe 💗