A family of 9 has made the holidays a stressful time emotionally and financially. in recent years weve suffered several tragic deaths in our immediate families and financial strains have continued to mount. Our family support systems are very minimal and so as we approach the upcoming holiday with a newborn and 6 other children (biological & adopted) the feelings of dread have flooded back in. The loss of key members of the family have made the holidays difficult to face and financial burden makes it unbearable at times. The last few years christmas was non-existent  and this year i can't bare to see disappointed faces on Christmas morning and thought the earlier we get started the better chances of miracles finding their way to our family this holiday season.