I know there are people out there with bad problems of their own.Ive had a hard life,and I've always tried to believe that things will get better, But I have reached the point .I can't do it all anymore by myself. I'm disabled, I have diabetes, bi polor, anxiety and depression as well as neuropathy and chronic pain and arthritis. I've worked all my life and I keep trying to get jobs because to get disability you have to fight,well I have no money to pay my bills while I try to get it.i also suffer from tragic grief and bi polor and it causes me to have problems with everyday life.i would like to tell you about my childhood, I found my 3month old brother dead,and a few days ltr I was kidnapped my real dad ,who didn't want me and just wanted me to hurt my mom.He hid me in a closet where I lived at his parents house from the time I was 3 until my mom met my step dad who hired a private detective. And,I spent years in therapy from things that were allowed to happen to me. I got older ,and lost everything in a house fire.And then in 2007 i woke up and my husband was dead. and 2019 my step dad passed away. My mom needed me to come live with her and take care of my 100s year old grandmother. 102 in 2022 whe sh passed..i woke up and found my mom gone in 2022 and then for 2 more months I tried to take care of my grandma knowing I would wake up to find her gone.My health started going down hill very fast,1st i found out i have diabetes, and neuropathy, But,after finding all the family I have besides a daughter and grandbabies in another state,they said that they anxiety, depression and bi polor and then tragic grief. Then arthritis and chronic pain and barely able to walk.i can't clean and I've filed for disability but end up having to chose to hurt and not able to take care of myself to having to find ways to pay bills…I'm so depressed I can't function and have no help to not live like this. I have no help to clean. But,my house is so bad it's a hazard for several reasons, the roof leaks and the furnace quit working last year,my hot water heater is going out,my bathroom is gone and all I have is a toilet that stays clogged and a shower that leaks and floods the floors to use it. I have a shower chair, but I need a bathtub..the house has old fuse box and they blow all the time and I can't use most of my appliances because my house needs to be rewired.fuse box is going to catch fire.my floors are messed up and im supposed to be in wheelchair and no way to get in and out. My windows don't open .My diabetes is so out of control they have me hooked up to a dexcom and it sends my numbers to my phone and my daughters,I wake up to my numbers being sometimes 400+ and then in the middle of the night I drop down to below 50 and she can't get me awake by phone and then has to call 911 and it's happening alot.i take medication and luckily the state pays that.I also can't go into a room because there's a live wire hanging..if my house doesn't get fixed then they will end up condemning it and I'll have nowhere to go.i can't live at my daughters .I've got proof of everything I'm going thru and I've tried every type of agencies in my area and it's a small town that just doesn't have the resources to help me..I have had a hard life and I just for once,want to believe in a miracle..It's all been to much.ive never asked for anything but since 2019,I've struggled more and more everyday and I just pray 🙏 that I can find the help I need, because I'm getting to the point, I don't want to be here anymore. I sit in a corner and screaming and crying because I don't know what else to do anymore, and my mental health is just getting worse.i know that everyone has problems,but idk what to do anymore and I don't know where to turn.i don't pray for a new house or bigger one,I have 17.00 to my name and next month I won't be able to pay my bills again. I have a car that is messed up and I don't even pray for a new one, just for one that is safe .I was told my wheel can come off at anytime and other things wrong with it. I'm disabled and alone and I just don't know where to turn anymore…it's a fire hazards u can only use certain plug-in at a time. The roof leaks and i don't know where to turn anymore. I have bad credit and since I end up losing every job I get because they see i just can't do it..I have pictures and can prove everything. But,I'm begging God for once to help me find anyone who can help me. 

Michelle Baker