Recently I've encountered several hardships, from Increased Lupus Flares. This i  attacking my Heart and causin Chronic Systematic Health issues. Since the decrease in abilit to work and being in hospital, thi has taken a huge spin for the worse. Spending days in bed, from the constant pain and Mental Breaks, some day  honestly feeling like I want to give up from the weight feeling so heavy; I just want it to All stop. In the end I know brighter days are ahead, there's little loved ones depending on me, So I must keep pushing. I'm acknowledging I need a little help to lift this weight. I hate asking, my Anxiety is At all time high from even doing this, but I also know The Lord Sees the Desires of my Heart and Soul and Knows who I am. If I didn't have to, I wouldn't. I must pay the Bills, Get to Dr's, care for children, And Travel when my Daughter starts her Medical Infusions, as well as get my vehicle from the shop. Just today I spent another day in the hospital, this time with my little, whose also fighting the Ultimate fight against JIA, (Juvenile Arthritis), with a Compromise Immune System, Everything wants to attack us. Thank you from the Bottom of my Heart in Advance.