So over 6 years ago i left an abusive marriage(narcissistic, emotional, mental, financially and sometimes physical abuse). My brave daughter came forward last year and finally told me her father had been hurting her. I have been fighting non stop since 2019 to make sure she is safe. When we left we had nothing… i wasnt working at the time and everything was in my exs name. We started over with nothing. I have no family that is able to help and over the years i have spent over 80,000 in legal fees and bills. Our landlord allowed us to skip some rent payments until our final court date where we would seperate property but it has been 6 years and my ex keeps pushing it further and further and there is nothing i can do about it! It has been an absolute nightmare and i am thankful that my daughter is safe right now. We are at a stand still waiting for the DA to charge my ex so we can start trying to get the separation of property so we are not struggling . i am asking for  your help to keep my daughter safe. She is a smart , kind, loving 8 year old with high functioning autism. She has been so strong through this even when she was the one being hurt. Please we ask for your help!

In 2017 my daughter was about 7/8 months old when i had found out my husband was having his first affair…i tried to do what what best for my kiddo and work it out. I went on stress leave from work later that year due to my ex calling saying he was out of milk or sending unsafe photos of my kiddo(not knowing getting me to quit was part of his plan ). I ended up staying home and the emotional abuse got worse than it ever had been.  I used to make excuses for him when he would drink and black out and swing at me when i was trying to help but at this point it was harming my daughter.  We started staying in separate rooms in 2018 when i became scared to be around him because anything i said set him off. January 7th 2019 i asked him to leave the house because he was having an affair with a girl he was working with and he became extremely upset in front of our daughter and at one point held my throat and leaned me over our second story as i clawed to not be pushed over the side and our daughter was screaming and grabbing his leg. I was able to get back up and he left. I began to go to counseling and even tried to do marriage counseling. I was left with being able to stay at the house be he cut me off from all our assets as it was in his name.  He told me when he left u can ask me if you need food and i will let you know if i Think you need it. We went on food stamps. I borrowed $40 bucks from my aunt to have gas money for a job interview and began the search. I ended up getting a part time job with the school district. Her father began to watch her while i worked. I started to come home to find that they had left the house and wouldn't return until late at night. He would drop her off with fevers and she would be clearly upset. In june 2019 he never returned home with her. I called and called. I finally got ahold of her and she was screaming. I did not know where they were. He had ended up moving in with the girl he had an affair with the day i kicked him out but never gave me the details. He told me he would bring her back when he felt like it and that he was going to take her to Northern California where his family lived and again would bring her back when he felt like it. I went to the court as told by police to get an emergency hearing. I didnt feel she was safe. I got an emergency hearing 24 hours later and he never showed and was ordered to bring her home. Within 48 hours of taking off with her she was home thanks to the cops. When she returned she had lost all her communication (she was speaking full sentences before he took off with her).Thats when things started getting bad. He had taken our ring camera and hid it in the kitchen facing the living room to watch us. He had installed trackers on my truck as well(all of which i didnt know at the time). we went to court and got no visits from him but he could call which was a nightmare because a bately 2 ½ year old does not want to FaceTime. The next court date was a few months after he got monitored visiting and was ordered to pay child support and help pay half of her daycare(didnt happen until 2021 when i got his wages garnished). At the time i was still in denial about all the abuse going on and thats when i agreed to be the monitored visitation person so that my daughter could see her dad(thought it was for the best). He continued to make court dates trying to get full custody sending threats that he was going to take her away from me and id never see her for doing this to him. Around the time that i got her back i started getting the police showing up at all hours of the night and day doing welfare checks on my daughter(they were “anonymous “). a few days later we have cps show up(someone claimed i was an alcoholic and that my dad was an alcoholic and my mom a drug addict and that i was bringing men into the home to molest my daughter). Again they tried to say it was anonymous but when i said her dads name i got a look and the i cant say its anonymous. My parents at the time were helping as they could watch her while i did job interviews and went to therapy(cps told me i was bot allowed to have my parents near her until the investigation was done which lasted over 5 months) they had also made me strip her down to verify she wasnt bruised or hurt(which i didnt know my rights at the time) and she was already in a bathing suit when they came as we were swimming. I expressed my concerns as to her father and got the “were not investigating him”. The courts ordered a 3111 report in 2020 and the whole thing was done by a therapist that was paid over the amount owed by her dad and the whole report was messed up with over 500 errors and everything in her dads favor. the court granted joint custody. By 2023 i had 5 more cps calls where my daughter expressed real concerns about her father and his girlfriend and i was told that i would have to call and make my own reports to cps if i wanted him investigated (except the court threatened me saying if i called on him id loose all custody of my daughter. I tried to show them videos of her screaming and fighting him not to leave with him and the bruises she came home with. I had got her first autism evaluation in 2019 and she was diagnosed high functioning. I had to get 3 more evaluations over the years as her dad didnt agree with them. Changing her insurance at one point  so she couldn't receive services. I also put her in speech from 2019-2023 where in 2023 her speech therapist noticed she would stutter and loose her words or sounds after she spent the weekend with him. I have continued to dight for my daughter since 2019 because she deserves a good life where shes happy and safe. Through being harrassed for dating to the point her dad called cps and the cops on the guy i was dating saying he punched my daughter and taking her to urgent care on fathers day saying he molested her because she liked the guy i was dating more than him. Despite leaving everyday was harassment and threats from her dad who is a serious narcissist. The whole time i was thinking how i could co oarent and make this work until i realized he was mentally and emotionally abusing her as well as her coming home with black eyes(ran into a door) burns on her face(they burnt her with a curling iron) hair chopped off when she wasnt listening or cried for me. Wearing clothes 3x too small for her. I continued to fight. All this time we were held up in riverside county even though i was trying to move as i had started to work at a preschool. In 2021 we were finally allowed to move out of riverside before that if i did i was told i would only get visitation with my daughter. I sent videos of her dad shoving her in his car when she didnt want to go with all his force and yelling and driving off without buckling her and was told it wasnt enough to call cps. In march 2023 she came home from her dads and finally said he was hurting her in the worst way. We went straight to the er. We have been waiting for almost a year to see what happens but we are still racking up lawyer fees and unpaid rent from a verbal agreement we had with out landlord. We need some help and i hate asking but i need to keep this beautiful little girl safe and happy!  Please donate or share! everything is appreciated!

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