I am starting this fund for One reason Only & That's to Hope & Pray in getting at least support to know That even though I have had a pretty good Life In my 43 years of life given to me to Not Give Up Now….& The past 4 years most of all being the worst anyone could put upon themselves is I have Gave Up on Me!!!!! 😔💔& The Person Inside me that I have seemed to have Lost The Strong The happy the knowing we all have a few Bumps in the rode that we overcome and always find some way to push through any Situation we endure in Life….To make Life make sense and patch the broken parts along the way & find Better within ourselves I have lost every bit of that in me & everything around me….After Being strong for so many years through what I thought at times were horrible I was hit with Evil & it was coming at me like standing in the middle of nowhere having a million people throwing Rocks being hit so hard while they piled upon me until I couldn't move feeling helpless with no-one to call for help no-one to take the weight off or just say its gonna be ok you can over power the bad someone is listening!! Because their wasn't 😔 their wasn't nobody listening to say I was wrong but we can fix this or to say your right don't give up yet theirs a way!! Because their was nothing nobody no-one to stand beside me and just say you can & you will be ok….I've been fighting with myself running in circles until I just didn't want to do it alone anymore & I have gotten absolutely nowhere…..Iam now Homeless for the first time in my life with a heavy heart feeling nothing but worthless Scared more anxiety and depression ever to leaving myself only feeling more and more hopeless….emptiness….lonely…..most of all helpless trying to dig my way out of the weighted darkness life I'm living to get myself back to feel hope give myself the light of faith & strength to come back from this to the whole reason being I have Babies that need me that need my help struggling to find themselves without a Mother to give them all I'm Thirsting For to stay above water to give them Comfort Love & the strength to overcome their fears and Bad their fighting against To be The Best I Know & have seen them Be struggling life's battles & letting the easy but wrong ways get the best of them at times knowing they can and have the strongest ability to be able to fight the hard to get all they want & need in life & without Me when theirs nobody else in the world for them to Believe In count on and have a safe place to always go to I'm scared of the worst to get to get the best of them Because without them My Most ABSOLUTE PERFECT MOST IMPORTANT NUMBER 1 BEST PART OF MY older years in life that I wanna enjoy and cherish My laughs & Giggles Silliness & Joy I wanna Give Receive & leave With The most Amazing Memories anyone can give when giving to someone & That is My Babies❤️‍🩹Babies MY GRANDBABIES!!!!!!! 😭 So My Most Important Reason For Reaching out To The World For Help Reaching out for Help when I just really wanna Curl up & just stop exhausting myself fighting against what I can't come out of Alone because I'm Tired My reason for Praying someone will hear me maybe just One person to look at me wanting it all back doing this To get Myself Back with a little help starting my life over hoping anyone will see to look past what some may say not helping her please please find it in your Heart to know helping me raise a little money so I can Have A Car Truck Suv or o ya Yes Please & Granny Van remolded Bus/Little Home RV anything to be able to have Stability Relax my Mind & Body not worry so I can CONTINUE a few more several a lotta years to come working my Butt off for my little family get us back together give them a warm place in their hearts to feel comfort after the tragic I am haunted by that they all have individually at 4 To 26 years old what their little minds have been through things I fight in my mind everyday knowing what they have and are still going through something that's harder than anything In life to talk about….So me wanting this and reaching out is to More than myself being at ease having peace of mind is My Babies this is for them if I'm "ok" they can be AMAZING!! I'm failing & it's not a good feeling so please help me please help me get above water to help my family have peace and comfort day by day not fear & worry That's all I want I just need a little help so please please not so much for myself but for my little ones this will mean more than the world to me & so much more to them I will never be more Thankful or Appreciate anything more than having  Faith Hope & Strength back within myself to give to them….So Thank You to whoever even just takes the time out of their day to read this and pass it on  i appreciate you I'm putting in my Faith that I can come back from this just please push me let myself allow getting my life back and not fighting it alone ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 I need your help please help me…