I am the spouse of a cocaine addict.  I’ve been on this journey for over six years now. I have done my best to help, but I have not been successful. To this point, my spouse has believed he could do it on his own. He can’t. He has finally figured that out and asked to go to rehab.  Thankfully I do have insurance that will make it possible for him to get that help. But, the long term financial abuse of living with an addict and the prospect of him being gone for 35 days has me on the verge of financial collapse. I’m behind on every bill, including my mortgage. I have maxed out every credit line I have over the past year just to keep groceries in the house and the lights on. Because of course my paychecks just disappeared before bills could be paid. I’ve taken the steps now to  protect my income, but I know I waited to long. I always thought “This is the last time” but it never was.  I do not know what his future holds, what our future holds, I just know I have to be on solid footing so I can make my decisions with confidence. I am actually very good at budgeting, when I am in control, but I gave that up. I won’t do that again. $7,000 is not all that I owe, but would give me a solid start at reversing my course, which is all I want. I accept my responsibility  for enabling him, and know that moving forward my boundaries have to be firm.