I have recently been experiencing significant stress, anxiety, depression, manic/psychosis behavior. I have always suffered with anxiety and depression, however since Bariatric surgery in 2024, and the recent diagnosis of Fibromyalgia, my mental health has been struggling, even more now. One minute I am happy and loving life, the next I feel a sudden dark cloud of sadness, anger and irritability. I recently have experienced manic episodes, where I see things that aren't their, and any noises triggers an echo in my head that makes me want to scream and cry, in confusion and fear. This mental state effects my daily life at home and at work. With the diagnosis of Fibromyalgia, due to constant underlying pain all day everyday, doesn't help my mental state either. I have been fighting battles with doctors to figure out my wide spread pain after losing over 100 pounds. I should feel great, not worse! They just toss me from one medication to another, to this blood work and that test. Not one doctor can be real and help me. After the manic episodes I recently have had, and trying to be seen by my PCP's, they tell me to just go to the “ER”. I have had to miss work due to significant decline in my health, and not being able to be myself, or feel myself. When you have no motivation to do the things you love, be the person you know you are, funny, happy, energetic, you know that their is something not right. In researching my options to get the best medical help I can, I came across this program at my local Hospital. 

Partial Hospitalization Programs (PHP). this program is  designed to support individuals experiencing conditions such as depression, anxiety, PTSD, bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder. You go every day, you have a routine agenda of psych assessments, support groups, group therapies, one on one with a registered nurse etc. I found this to be the best option for me to get the help I need, as waiting lists to get into therapy itself is over 2 years out. 

Monday 5/12/25 is the start to my Partial Hospitalization Program at Frisbie Hospital. Monday-Friday 8-2:30. I’ll have therapy, evaluations, a nurse to help me with what I’m on currently for medication and get me on the right regiment of medication. I’ll get proper diagnosis’s etc. I will finally get the help I need and hope to beat this constant battle I have. They will be able to even give me a psych/therapist when I graduate the program and not have to wait years for one. Hoping the doctors and therapist I see can dig deep into my soul and find out what’s triggering all this. Hoping to be graduate and be back to work beginning of June. However, I need to put myself first and heal before I can do that. So we shall see how the next 3 weeks go.   

So, while I am in this program, I will be taking a leave of absence from work, so I can get back to myself and get the help I need. This program can last 5+ weeks, depending on the individual. As I am head of household, supporting my family with my income only, this will affect all my expenses. 

From the kindness of my heart, I ask for help raising funds to assist in paying for the program I am going to go into, help with Rent, Vehicle Payment, Insurances, Food, etc. while I am getting the help I need, and not worry about coming home to an eviction notice, repo of my vehicle, lights turned off, no heat… as NO ONE should feel that way, especially when they are trying to get help for their health. 

Anything will help, and be greatly appreciated. IF you know me, I would give the shirt off my back for anyone, I am always lending a hand, and always helping the community with whatever I can, with nothing in return. Smiling faces make my day. 

Thank You, God Bless.