Hello, I was involved in a horrific car accident many years ago. I was a passenger and am very lucky to be alive. That day changed my life forever. I have spent the last 30+ years in and out of rehabilitation, surgeries and injections, acupuncture, massage therapy and more. When I was younger I was able to counter many of my physical symptoms and appear to live a normal live on the outside, but my body hurt and rarely could I sleep through a night. My first surgery was cervical with a fusion and the removal of bone fragments that had lodged into my spinal chord and brain stem. I have nerve damage in my left hand because it took many doctors over 10+ years to find the source of my pain. A neurosurgeon finally found it and I was in emergency surgery. He stated one bad fall backwards or a rear end collision and just might have been paralyzed. He stated my lumbar region was also badly injured, but technology was not advanced enough for him to feel confident it would bring the success I needed, so he asked me to wait until I could no longer bear it. What ensued was years and years of Physical Therapy until I would run out of money, save up and start again. My savings has been drained over and over and here I am once again out of money with no resources in sight. I then had hernia surgery, which was of no help with pain. Over the course of the next 20 years I tried rebuilding my life. I have bought, and lost 3 homes at 3 different times to foreclosure. Each time due to a medical emergency. About 10 years ago I suffered an aneurysm type mini-stroke at work. I caught it very early, drove to ER where I spent a week in the hospital. The doc said I was very lucky. I had several weeks of physical therapy on my face as one side was sagging and for the most part it was successful. When I am very tired you can tell which side was affected. My employer's answer to this event was to lay me off, stating they were “downsizing”.  My manager called me later and apologized profusely stating senior mgmt was afraid of another medical emergency and didn't want the liability and that there were a lot of changes going on in the company. He also said he was close to retirement and didn't want to rock the boat for himself. The market had downturned and there were no jobs in my field at that time. I lost another home, got C19 horrifically bad working in real estate and was down for several weeks again. From God's grace I received a call from a recruiter that offered me a job. I was rebuilding. I was paying over $40K in medical and ccard bills I was living off of. I paid those debts and continued my PT and started saving for a home. This time, I wanted to pay cash so no one could ever take my home from  me again. I thought I was finally going to be okay. However, my back pain was increasing and my hips were hurting, especially my left one. On Christmas I took a tumble down a flight of stairs and my back pain became unbearable. From there I had major lumbar spine surgery that took me out for almost a year. I still have quite a bit of pain but can do most basic daily living tasks. I was told it was due to a bad hip, so I addressed that, had surgery and the pain persisted. Then I was told it was due to a bad knee, so only a few months later I had knee surgery. The pain persisted and the knee pain also persisted. A year of PT again failed to relieve me. My hip is worse that it was before the surgery and to top it off, my eyes were damaged in that surgery. I've been to many specialists and no one could fix them. I could see distance and mid-range, but I could not read more than a sentence or two without horrible eye pain, stabbing, blurred vision, and my eyes constantly felt like they were extremely fatigued. I could read PERFECTLY for hours on end before that surgery. I experienced gaslighting from some doctors. I called a few attorneys and because I couldn't pay for their services, they basically said, unless you're blind, you probably won't win. I was devasted. Now I'm in a spot I cannot do a physical job nor a desk job due to pain and damaged vision. I knew I needed hip replacement at that point after trying injections again, more PT and seeing new surgeons, but I was afraid. I feel like one more bad blow and it just might break me. So, I spent the next 10 months doing everything holistically I could with on line doctors and health managers and my vision has finally started improving with regards to reading. I believe I can continue to get better in this area. My hip pain has only been increasing and I've been using a cane most days to get around. I don't want this for my life. I want to be able to participate in life, be active, start dating again… I want to find my husband, but I want to be “normal” and feel attractive. I'm out of money now… I need this hip surgery and I need to be able to pay my bills. I had taken out an emergency loan when I was still working my last job (was laid off, along with 50% of the staff when the company was acquired). I still have to pay that loan every month, rent, insurance, phone, gas, electricity, ccard payments, my real estate dues etc. and those bills amount to about $4400/mo. I'm feeling a lot of anxiety and fear on having yet another surgery, the fear of not being able to pay my rent, the fear of my eyes or something else going wrong during surgery, and the fear of my credit getting damaged again. I've worked very hard to restore my credit rating back to the 700's. I've always been a proud and independent person…. having to write this brings feelings of shame and failure. I'm single with no children, no husband or boyfriend to care for me. I've been doing it on my own, trying to get back to a “normal” life so I'm not a burden to anyone. My initial recover is at least 12 weeks, with up to 1 year for full recovery. I am hopeful that is 3-4 months I can be earning a living again. I didn't want to ask for too much, but I still have a rough 12 months head of me. I hope you can help me…. any amount would help, and I thank you for reading this.