I finally found the courage to get a restraining order and escape my abuser. The problem is I called all the shelters and tried everything to find a safe place to stay. All shelters are full and there is just no other places to help in my type of situation. I have no family or friends due to him isolating me. I wasnt allowed to leave the house so work was definitely not an option. I am desperately trying to find options so I don’t have to surrender myself back to the situation i finally escaped from. If I go back I know in my heart it will kill me.