Dear Helping hand community. My name is Christina Fletcher. I am in the second phase of my life. The first phase of my life, I proudly served my country. Due to an injury sustained during my enlistment, I was separated from my one true calling in life, Service to others. I was completely lost. I had no ideal what I was going to do next, simply because I never saw myself back in the “Civilian sector”. My goal was to retire from the military after 28 years, or my parents receiving a Purple Heart for some heroic act I did that cause them to be sitting under a cloud of smoke from a 21 gun salute. They say God laughs at our plans. I returned home like many others in my situation, and for years I became a shell of my former self. I could not put one foot in front of the other to get moving. Everything in my life suffered, my relationships with family, friends, and my community. One day I was at my lowest and I am not going to get into detail but I knew I need mental health help ASAP, but I was fortunate because the VA gave me the best mental health team , they cared, I found out caring can be contagious , I too started to care. It took awhile for me to get where I am today. I am proud of where I am today. I began reflecting on my life and where I saw myself in 5 years, needless to say I came up with nothin. One day I feel asleep on the couch with the TV on YouTube . I could hear a speaker Dan Pena if you haven’t saw him speak you must, if you have thin skin skip it. I woke up and rewind it, and if you do watch you will understand why. A fire was lit. I use to think people let me down, but they didnt I was letting myself down. I went into pray asking God to intervene on my behalf and I knew he would because he has always been with me, even when I was at my lowest points in life, he was there. I stayed up that whole night I couldn’t sleep. I refused to close my eyes until God revealed something to me. I lost , I went to sleep. The next morning, the TV still blaring, I heard someone talking about starting a Box truck company. I felt what I couldn’t stay awake for God showed me mercy. I watched YouTube all day and night for 2 weeks gather all the information I could. Some influencers almost planted doubt,( can I do this?), and some influencers completely motivated me to stay on the path, it was not an accident. I did everything I was mentored to do to have a successful business in this particular industry. I was setting my self up for success. I haven’t felt that good in years. I went to get a truck, that was the only thing I didn’t do (I waited until I got a couple of companies agreeing I could drive for them even with a brand new MC number)  I found the truck. I knew was perfect for me. I even named her Big Joss. I got pretty good credit standings, I went to my bank, whose never let me down when I wanted a car, I quickly found out a car and a commercial vehicle are two different entities. The loan officer looked at me and said if you were getting a personal vehicle no problem you check all the boxes but , without revenue we can’t touch you and no one else will. I was crushed, it was like seeing the finish line, but not the runner whose going to break through it before you do. For one second I felt sorry for myself then I quickly snapped out of it. I could hear Dan Pena in my ear. I called my father and he reminded me the government has grants for veterans. You are a veteran trying to start a business, try it out. I was hopeful again, just maybe. The grant process was easy with a $35.00 process fee, and then they wanted you to do a review but what is it to review I wasn’t approved or denied I literally just pressed submit. I was hopeful any way, they want us to start veteran owned businesses and my business would allow me to get back to my true calling, service to other. I was told you are what a grant program call a “unicorn”, a veteran, a woman , a minority, It is safe to say I think grant programs have seen real life unicorns before, because I didn’t get it. I was thinking there has got to be a way. I was watching my favorite app again YouTube and I saw my favorite influencer on starting a box truck Business and he was explaining his start up cost, I thought to myself just rub more salt on my wounds you missed a spot. Then he said if he could do it all over again knowing what he knew now he would have paid his truck off got a loan through his parents , friends, or anything. His last words of wisdom hit me like a ton of bricks, he said try to get capital however you can without financing because you are new in this industr, try Go fund me or some website like that. That is why I am here pleading my case to who I believe with all my heart not only see I am truly passionate about this startup, my mind can’t even contain how scaled I can see this business going, simply because I am not going to let myself down again ever, and with God help and hopefully a few dreamers who are reading this, I know I will succeed.  Sorry about the long story, after this post they will put a cap on how many words you can use. With all my heart and soul I thank you completely  even if you don’t give, thanks for taking the time to read my story., this was therapeutic and at the same time I shared my dream with my community. Stay in peace