First and foremost, I want to say I have four beautiful daughters who are healthy and loved. God is so good and I am so grateful for them every day. Over the past few years, I have lost my father and three uncles—basically all my father figures. This loss has been incredibly hard, and it has deepened my heart’s greatest desire: to have a baby boy. I know my father would be thrilled if I had a son, and it would mean so much to honor his memory in this way. 

I know my story isn’t tragic, and I am blessed in many ways. I am eternally grateful for all that I have. Still, my mama heart yearns for a boy deeply, and I grieve not just my father but also not having a son. Some people may not understand, and that’s okay—I hope they never have to grieve something they can’t have because it isn’t in their control. I am a believer and have been praying about this for years, trusting that Jesus will help this dream come true.

I am seeking support for fertility treatments, which are expensive and not something I can afford on my own. Insurance does not cover any fertility treatments. I’d also like to add that I am a hospice nurse and work multiple jobs to try and make this dream come true. This post was a very difficult decision because I don’t like asking for help. God has been really good to me already but He’s also sending me signs that it is time to pursue this. If you feel moved to help, I would be so grateful for your support and prayers as I work toward my dream. Thank you for reading my story and for any kindness you can share.