I just wanna mention that I’m glad there is resources and stuff like this to help people when they are really struggling and need things but don’t know what else to do Or who to ask. I don’t really know how it’s gonna go but I’m Very grateful for this opportunity.& I should add whatever is donated to this will be going towards not just bills & Rent, some court cost and probation fees and transportation to get there an back so it’s not just my bills in rent My name is Cortney, I’m 27 years old & I made a stupid serious mistake a couple years ago. I was dating a guy that really didn’t make good choices And I ended up messing my life up over it. I take accountability because I shouldn’t have been in that position to be in the situation but honestly We were homeless didn’t have any family to go to for help or advise and they all did drugs too. He was using one of the worst drugs known to mankind & that’s all he worried about. I cared about him so much that I didn’t want him to be sick. I regret that now, I’ve not had the best life. My family suffers from drug addiction to mental health problems. And most of them aren’t living today sadly, I ended up getting locked up for just for being with the person they found in possession of the stuff. it really scared me at first I just didn’t know what was really going on or what I needed todo when you’re in jail if you don’t have nobody to help you on the outside It’s like you’re just trying to block everything out sleep and eat starving even though they feed you starve bad and around some horrible people, where it was unfair that I ended up getting as much time as they gave me and the guy that I was with who stuff it was didn’t end up getting in trouble I wrote appeals and habeas corpus paperwork and letters to the judge for reconsideration, I even tried to get a re-trial or change of venue but being there doing that getting a job it helped me see that I can do anything if I really want to. the whole time I was in there I thought about things I wanted to do when I got out & how bad I just wanted to change and have a positive healthy life and show people if I can do it they can do it. I went through alot and I’m truly alone I have no vehicle, means to get anywhere I ended up finding me a little apartment but honestly with rent and bills I don’t really want to lose the place That I just got. I ended up in this position because a man that I’ve known for a long time before I ever got in trouble got a hold of me started confessing his love for me, begging me to be with him, and where I’ve known him for a long time I trusted himended up talking me into coming back to the area got in trouble in like we was gonna be together. I ended up getting pregnant but lost the baby. A few months back. That completely destroyed me it was gonna be my first child. That’s something that I’ve always wanted. I didn’t think I could even have children at 14 weeks going into my second trimester. I lost the baby and I think I lost a piece of myself after that happened. I found out the guy was married he never separated from his wife like he said, and a lot of the stuff he was telling me was lies. I just went through a whole program to teach me how not to fall from manipulation and stuff like this and Ive beat myself down just because he pretended He loved me and cared about me I fell right in his trap. But if people could just see the way he was talking to me and what he would say to me it come off so genuine and real at first I wasn’t gonna fall for it. I told him I just got out and wasn’t trying to jump into nothing but that right there is why I think that happened and I ended up right in his arms i hadn’t had a connection in so long and everything he said was right, what I needed to hear.. but yeah, I’m back down here in the area. I got in trouble in & im on probation. There’s not really anything in my area. It’s a real rural area and it’s really bad. A lot of people are on drugs. A lot of people are homeless and I know if I fall back into that category of being on the street or having to stay place a place with people homeless I’m probably going to end up relapsing with this much stress n depression. I’m going through right now. And if I mess my home plan up probation will violate me. i’m just a girl trying to do the right thing and not fall back into the madness  learn from what I went through in my past and all the bad situations that I don’t wanna end up going back to.

   I know it’s hard to come buy money nowadays and a lot of people probably don’t even have it. They’re probably going through similar situations but I would greatly appreciate and admire you if you help me with anything even just a dollar. Anything is better than nothing and it gives me something to work with. I have a job but it’s a virtual remote job from home and it’s not really what I thought it was gonna but I’m grateful still just because I have a job. I didn’t wanna end up job at one of these retail stores because the people that work there use substances honestly I used to do drugs with them. I try to set up healthy boundaries.  bless everybody. Sorry for being so long and Thank you!