I am seeking assistance to just get me through a difficult time. I am struggling with my mental health and need get into a treatment center. I found some short-term assistance for food & utilities. But they do not consider the rest of the bills you may have, rent, a car payment, car insurance, loans, & other expenses you may have. Which adds more stress to my current situation. I am already feeling so much guilt and anxiety. I feel like such a burden to everyone, and I hate that I am asking for help. But if I get behind on these things, I will get myself in a bigger hole that I will not be able to get out of.  I am up all day and night trying to figure out what to do. I hate myself enough. I am leasing my car and they will not work with me as I have already deferred a payment. A car is an essential and necessary for me to be able to get around for my appointments and etc. I work quite a ways from where I work so this is important for me. One of the uglies parts of mental health is the debt you create for yourself and the people you love. I wish I was not in this situation but I truly need the support of friends, family and community. I have to take the leave from work and there is no other financial options available for me and my family. I have to continue to put in the work to learn to deal with my anxiety, my mood swings, impulsive behaviors & the thoughts of wanting to commit suicide.  I believe this can help in focusing on some of the coping mechanisms I need to work through all of this. I hope that someone out there who has been in a similar situation or knows someone who has fought this battle can understand how this is so devastating and how hard this is to ask for help. But I want to get better. I need to try to get the medical help I need and try to do go to the treatment center & to get more support. The panic attacks have increased, and the thoughts of “ I don’t want to live” haunt me daily. Living with mental health issues and keep avoiding them is only making it worse. I feel like I am in this long term war inside my mind that I can’t control and I don’t know the outcome or when it will end. I am desperate for help. I do not have any friends or family as you can see I have posted on my social media page and only one person donated. Even if you can’t help financially, I hope that you consider praying for me and my family. The total I actually need is $3,648.41 but if I can just pay my weekly expenses for 6 weeks until the short term disability kicks in. Thank you for your time and support. - Virginia